2 years ago SMILING, living life, THINKing of cycling goals and to THINK my thoughts would change.
This photo is Beth and I smiling big after a fun ride in Tahoe Donner. This will never change. I am smiling within ALWAYS.
Today after a cold morning walk with Cora my face freezes.
I have bought 4 new items to try out for winter season. Scleral lens, Warm Skin, warming pillow, mini vibrator… yes, the vibrator is for my face!!!
Even though it's a ongoing cycle of TBI (traumatic brain injury) and facial paralysis I am so thankful for the most awesome husband! Thank you Andy for everyday giving me the strength and believing who I am.
who is Jill? What's inside that matters
I love each one of you and who share your stories on your life experiences with me. It helps me be thankful for what I do have, versus what I don't! Here's to the brain!
As of today I am healing and going through synkinesis treatment. Heat, surface massage to center of mouth, in the mouth massage to heal trigger points and facial exercises.
All I want for Christmas is to see, smile, wink, tears, balance and healthy brain. I hope you're reading this Santa :O)
Cora is my (our) dog and has been the greatest addition to our family. She has taught Andy and I a lot in the past 9 years.
She lives in the moment. Everything is new and thrilling to her. She gets excited for every single exploration has no expectations for her performance.
3 helpful tools to train your brain. You can find the apps on iTunes or search the googler.
1.) Build your own personal training program at Lumosity. Improve your memory, attention, and overall brain performance through scientific brain workouts.
2.) Meditation at Headspace (on-the-go) This app contains bite-sized techniques to help you sleep better, focus more and get some relief from a busy mind.
3.) The Chopra Center for Wellbeing. Oprah & Deepak started a free 21-day meditation experience. This started November 11th, however it's not too late to register and participate today.
I’m not finished learning from and trying to make sense of my experience, and I know there are more lessons to be learned. But for now, I’m happy to be healing, spending time with my family, feeling good, and enjoying the little things in life.
Working on my balance, vision and brain at the local boulder field.
The mix of honeymooning and treatments
The best time of year for us is our annual honeymoon. This year we escaped the mountains and traveled to the Sea of Cortez.
Shortly after getting home I went through four days of neuro treatments, then I got right on my Moots and rode my local trails. This is the best reward for me.
I had my hearing follow up as well at the University of Utah. One of my favorite doctors who has seen me from the start to now. Yesterday I can say was my last visit. I am within hearing decimals on my left ear! Super happy about this and even though my ear drum was broken it isn't worth doing surgery, since my hearing is within standards. The hearing balance will continue to heal. This is amazing how much my hearing has improved! Here to all the "huh" and "what did you say, I can't hear you" Celebrated with Andy and Cora for the first snow storm.
If you are dealing with facial paralysis: buy a pair of swim goggles polarized is a must for playing in the ocean.
True love to be able to carry me!
post neuro treatment ride
Cora giving us the snow report.
Report on my long overdue event from Park City Point 2 Point!
My goal this summer was to ride Park City Point 2 Point with Andy. Its been a long time since we did an event together and it was one of the most rewarding days of my life. This summer was a learning experience for both of us. It took most of it to learn how to ride together. On August 31st Andy and I were one, as he guided me through the 75 miles of single track and 14,000 ft of climbing. TBI (Traumatic brain injury) is no joke with one eyed vision and hearing. The brain is beautiful and strong. Thank you Andy, Head Space and Focus.
I can't thank everyone enough for the wonderful support, cheering at the feed zones, Moots Cycles, GU Energy Lab, Wobble-Naught and ibex.
My first stop was drip coffee at Persephone Bakery however no vegan/gluten free so satisfied my temptations with berries. I do feel the drip is acidic but the espresso is divine. They do have an gluten free cookie that I have yet to try.
Next stop Lotus Cafe for the most divine blueberry muffin (vegan and gluten free) and 2 shot espresso. The going rate for double shot in Jackson is $2.50. After enjoying the muffin top the remainder stuffed nicely in the jersey pocket for a later snack.
My next day of fulfilling my taste buds was after road riding for 5 hours and craving double shot before heading out with friends for dinner. Stopped at Elevated Grounds for the organic fair trade & locally roasted coffee.
My buttery moose, sitting plate side. I will tell you more about this treat, however you must take me with you.
Great introduction with my Vamoots to espresso.
As a GrassMoots racer I got out and toured some of Colorado's vineyards a little while back. Some stunning photos and good words of the perfect adventure by bike... Click on button to read more about my blog entry.
July 28, 2012
August 2012 taping eyelid closed
August 28, 2012
September 28, 2012 Taping eyelid closed then wearing a bandaid to prevent dust and wind.
October 28, 2012
November 28, 2012 Your eyes will say a lot about what you are going through with life.
December 28, 2012
January 28, 2013 Gold plate in eyelid and lower cheek bone surgery
February 28, 2013 No more taping the eyelid
March 28, 2013 Seeing more movement in my left side smile
April 28, 2013 Continued support to keep moisture in my eye.
May 28, 2013 Check out that smile! We are seeing improvement in my smile and face movement. However still waiting for the eyelid to blink and produce moisture/tears.
June 28, 2013 My grimace smile I have perfected.
July 28, 2013
Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) it's a cycle of my life right now. I am challenged everyday on how I am recovery and staying healthy.
Facial Paralysis is no joke! The fact I still have no eye sight in my left eye, hearing imbalance, partial facial movement, cotton mouth, no tears, no blinking mechanism. The doctor said it would take 6 months to 1 year to see movement. Yes, I do have movement in my face, even if it's not where I want it to be right now.
I continue my healing process with acupuncture, therapy, facials, massages, cranio sacral, exercise and nutrition. I will start going to a clinical neuropsychologist this August to help with skills.
There is so much love out there. Sundance Resort sunshine and skipping rocks at the creek. A great day to find this heart rock.
Gravel road and I are friends again.
My hiding spot
Introduced Vamoots to higher grounds.
I'm not sure how and why I keep getting bucked off the "horse" but I continue to get back on and keep riding.
It happened... the crash after the crash.
On Thursday morning I was enjoying my mountain bike ride. I was working on my skills, riding single track and having so much fun. I didn't see anyone all morning until I decided to take the long way around to stay off mid-mountain. I was descending down a gravel road (right above the water tower in Park City) and somehow slipped off my grips going 20mph. It felt like it went in slow motion, as I lost control slid over the handle bars and crashed onto the gravel road. I hit my left side, arm first, hip, then legs with the bike twisting around me. I sat up and looked at the blood dripping down everywhere. It's never easy crashing, but this moment felt very scary.
When I was descending back down to Main Street I kept saying "I love to ride, I love to ride, I love to ride" The bloody mess that I was, thankfully a old guy in a truck picked me up on Empire Pass to drive me to Andy's shop. Right away they hosed me down to rinse me off to see what was really underneath all the blood and gravel. Andy decided on my left arm it really needed a clean at the PC clinic. As the nurse cleaned the gravel out of my body I kept looking at Andy saying "I am so happy to feel the pain" the doctor said "you're tough, you sure you don't want any pain medicine" my response, nope! I did get talked into a antibiotic since infection would be possible if I didn't take it. I will be smart and take the medicine. As we left the clinic I felt like a walking mummy with gauze from arm to legs. That evening the pain in my elbow was horrible and Andy talked me into taking Tylenol PM. That being said it was my first time since August 3rd taking any pain medicine. I cannot stand drugs of any kind and believe in nutrition, exercise, love and strength will heal you. It truly does and I know this from experience.
The fact that I can't remember my July 28th cycling accident is scarier now that I have crashed again. I know riding with vision in one eye can be tricky with depth perception and focus, but I focus on the abilities I do have right now.
I had a hearing test done recently and it's improving every time. My TBI will always be a roller coaster, but for the last month things are on a uphill climb. The BPPV however has creeped back for the last week and I will start doing my exercises again. The facial paralysis is improving everyday and slowly can see the smile get bigger. I have to work on my blinking powers but when I manually close my eyelid it stays shut longer for when I go to sleep. The tears haven't returned yet, nor can pucker my lips, raise my eyebrow or crinkly my nose. The moisture in my mouth and chewing on the left side is still non functional. Whelp, that's the latest y'all on me post accident(s). The doctors are pretty happy on my improvements and believe I will have full recovery.
Until next time... wear a helmet! Even when your out commuting around town. Wear a helmet... again wear a helmet.
Pantyliners are more then a feminine hygiene product.
Post one week: bruised and oozing road rash.